So...it's been a while.
What can I say? Summer has sucked me in with all of it's sunshine, snow cones, and late night projected movies on a building.
It's treated me well so far.
However, my life wouldn't be my life without the occasional stress meltdown.
I am currently trying to figure out what this fall holds for me. Also, i'm really trying to make a backpacking trip to Europe happen in the Spring, so that's of course affecting my decisions for the fall.
I'm still plugging away at the good ol' Great Harvest and Gia's and I only want to stab my eyes out like...58% of the time.
On a good week.
Everyone around me is still dropping like flies with the wedding fever, and after the end of this summer, I will be one of a small handful of girls I graduated with that aren't married.
I'm still plugging away at the good ol' Great Harvest and Gia's and I only want to stab my eyes out like...58% of the time.
On a good week.
Everyone around me is still dropping like flies with the wedding fever, and after the end of this summer, I will be one of a small handful of girls I graduated with that aren't married.
Wooohooo.
Why do we allow ourselves to feel like losers about this? I mean, hooray for all of you that ARE married, but what the heck happened to the attitude of enjoying being single?
Since when did we allow the pressures of society get to us?
Oh wait, I forgot. Since always.
I'm over it.
I've decided to enjoy my life. (Well, to try my best anyway..we all have those days)
I'm going to do what I WANT to do, not what I feel like I have to do.
Remember how all growing up when rules would be enforced upon us in school and at home, all we would say was "I can't wait to move out" or "I can't wait till i'm in charge of me".
That time has come. Actually, for my age group, it's been that way for a couple of years now, yet I still find myself in the principles office of life way more often than i'd like.
The craziest thing about it, is that I am the one putting myself there!
All of my "pulled cards" and "time outs at recess" have been because I've subconsciously entered myself back into the world where I have rules to follow and a syllabus to adhere to.
I'm pulling the fire drill on all of it.
When the heck did we start putting time limits on everything?
I have to remind myself this often, though, because I do live in a state and at an age where we are in constant competition with ourselves and ESPECIALLY those around us.
How am I supposed to run a race I haven't trained for? Why would I jump in during the middle of someone else's marathon and try and keep up, then get down on myself because I couldn't match up?
Just like I don't sin like others, I also don't live my life exactly how others do.
Yes, ultimately I am trying to be as close to Christ as I can be, and often in my realm of friends and family, that means living similarly to how they do.
That doesn't mean, however, that I need to graduate when they do, date when they date, or work as much or as little as they work.
I should only have one principal, one rule enforcer, and the only person allowed to tell me when to take a time out, is my Heavenly Father.
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On a different note, I feel like I go on and on a lot on here about slightly negative stuff, so I want to just take a minute to reflect positively. Usually this is something you should do in a journal, but that's what I use this for.
I LOVE my friends. I wake up every single day knowing that what is going to get me through work, is that after it, I get to play with my friends.
My grandma and my mother nurse my broken soul and heart back to health on a daily basis. I even had a spiritual talk with my Dad the other day. I know, don't fall of your chairs.
Because of a very loving and selfless man, I don't have to worry about my Mom as much anymore. I know he treats her like a princess. Thank you Paul. That makes my heart feel a little lighter everyday.
I get to play the game that kept me together during some of the hardest days of my life growing up and
I get to do this every Tuesday, with some of my best friends! :)
I have an able body and mind, and for the most part, I work hard to keep it that way.
I have an awesome YSA ward, a great bishopric, and an amazing gospel to go to church to learn about.
I get to enjoy homemade bread, treats, and Italian food nearly every day of my life. (Shhhh...don't tell my hips and love handles that)
Financially, i've been able to take care of myself without any help for almost a year now. That feels good.
My savings account likes me more and more every 2 weeks, and my bills never go unnoticed.
Most importantly though, I know my Heavenly Father knows me. He loves me, and he listens to me.
To have that knowledge is beyond any worldly treasure I could obtain.
Hey guys, life really is good. I promise. :)
Why do we allow ourselves to feel like losers about this? I mean, hooray for all of you that ARE married, but what the heck happened to the attitude of enjoying being single?
Since when did we allow the pressures of society get to us?
Oh wait, I forgot. Since always.
I'm over it.
I've decided to enjoy my life. (Well, to try my best anyway..we all have those days)
I'm going to do what I WANT to do, not what I feel like I have to do.
Remember how all growing up when rules would be enforced upon us in school and at home, all we would say was "I can't wait to move out" or "I can't wait till i'm in charge of me".
That time has come. Actually, for my age group, it's been that way for a couple of years now, yet I still find myself in the principles office of life way more often than i'd like.
The craziest thing about it, is that I am the one putting myself there!
All of my "pulled cards" and "time outs at recess" have been because I've subconsciously entered myself back into the world where I have rules to follow and a syllabus to adhere to.
I'm pulling the fire drill on all of it.
When the heck did we start putting time limits on everything?
I have to remind myself this often, though, because I do live in a state and at an age where we are in constant competition with ourselves and ESPECIALLY those around us.
How am I supposed to run a race I haven't trained for? Why would I jump in during the middle of someone else's marathon and try and keep up, then get down on myself because I couldn't match up?
Just like I don't sin like others, I also don't live my life exactly how others do.
Yes, ultimately I am trying to be as close to Christ as I can be, and often in my realm of friends and family, that means living similarly to how they do.
That doesn't mean, however, that I need to graduate when they do, date when they date, or work as much or as little as they work.
I should only have one principal, one rule enforcer, and the only person allowed to tell me when to take a time out, is my Heavenly Father.
-------------------------
On a different note, I feel like I go on and on a lot on here about slightly negative stuff, so I want to just take a minute to reflect positively. Usually this is something you should do in a journal, but that's what I use this for.
I LOVE my friends. I wake up every single day knowing that what is going to get me through work, is that after it, I get to play with my friends.
My grandma and my mother nurse my broken soul and heart back to health on a daily basis. I even had a spiritual talk with my Dad the other day. I know, don't fall of your chairs.
Because of a very loving and selfless man, I don't have to worry about my Mom as much anymore. I know he treats her like a princess. Thank you Paul. That makes my heart feel a little lighter everyday.
I get to play the game that kept me together during some of the hardest days of my life growing up and
I get to do this every Tuesday, with some of my best friends! :)
I have an able body and mind, and for the most part, I work hard to keep it that way.
I have an awesome YSA ward, a great bishopric, and an amazing gospel to go to church to learn about.
I get to enjoy homemade bread, treats, and Italian food nearly every day of my life. (Shhhh...don't tell my hips and love handles that)
Financially, i've been able to take care of myself without any help for almost a year now. That feels good.
My savings account likes me more and more every 2 weeks, and my bills never go unnoticed.
Most importantly though, I know my Heavenly Father knows me. He loves me, and he listens to me.
To have that knowledge is beyond any worldly treasure I could obtain.
Hey guys, life really is good. I promise. :)
